I'm sorry I had to put you through my annoying bullshit.
January 2012
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I don’t know who I use to be. I don’t know who I am now. I don’t even know who I want to be. I just don’t know anymore. I can’t even vent it out because I really don’t know what to say. My heart is so full of worry for everything. I’m tired of everything.
Turnin' Kisses To Bites
Turnin’ Kisses to Bites | Elainepramos
Track Listings:
1) Number One Sex - R. Kelly ft. Keri Hilson
2) What You Need - The Weeknd
3) Dance in the Mirror - Bruno Mars
4) Lotus Flower Bomb - Wale ft. Miguel
5) Wetter - Twista
6) Wet the Bed - chris Brown
7) Lingerie - Jeff Bernat
8) Be My Vixen - Miguel
9) The Morning - The Weeknd
10) Read Your Mind - Avant
11) Neighbors Know My Name - Trey Songz
12) Trading Places - Usher
13) Skin - Rihanna
14) On Top - Trey Songz
15) The Zone - The Weeknd ft. DrakeSEX TO THE EARS
This is why I don't tell you what's wrong
You feel the pain I feel & I don’t want you to. I don’t need you to. I want you to be happy. Why couldn’t you just leave me alone? Seeing you cry & knowing that i’m the reason why makes me feel even worse. I wish I never told you anything. I wish you never asked. I wish I never opened up. I wish you just stayed away from me & let me fix my own problem. It’s my life. I know you care. I need to know I can get through things on my own. You can’t ALWAYS be there for me. I need to know that i’m strong enough. I don’t want to push you away, but I don’t want you to hurt either. The worst part is I never know what to say to make you feel better. </3
Live in the moment,
cherish every moment you’re breathing. Just stop and appreciate everything you have. Sure, life is a struggle for everyone, but how you strong you stand is what makes you. No matter what you’re going through, just stop for a moment & thank God for today. You are breathing right now, that’s what matters. Go live your life to the fullest& enjoy the little things.<3
I don't want for everyone to miss me when I am dead, I want everyone to miss me when I am still alive.
♫ Just Listen: I guess, →
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I guess you could say I’m scared to involve myself with someone again. I’m scared of getting hurt. I’m scared of being used. I’m scared of being ignored, and being attached emotionally to someone who may not feel the same. I’m scared of inconsistency, and committing myself to the wrong person. But…
Breaking Point →
Do you ever have those moments where everything just finally starts to gets to you? You’ve held in all this hurt and frustration in for so long that it starts to take over, It’s like this poison that eventually starts to wear you down physically or mentally day by day, until eventually one day all these feelings that you have been holding in for so long began to break loose, you’re at your “Breaking Point”, you don’t know what to do anymore, maybe you’re confused or you don’t really understand why you feel the way you do, but all you know is that you can’t take it anymore, you’re tired of everything and sometimes you just feel like everything you do goes unappreciated, like nothing you do is good anymore mentality starts to take over and it’s just so hard to fight this pain, you know?
When people are so caught up in themselves, they lose who they once were. They forget who they were and turn into a person they never wanted to be. But they don’t see it, because in their eyes - they didn’t change, they turned everything for the better.
I wish everything would just be perfect for once. Just once. So I can just have a good feeling. I’m tired of being miserable and wanting to break down for no apparent reason. I’m tired of people treating me like SHIT and expecting me to be nice to them in return. I’m tired of all this stress and everyone just makes it worse. I wish I could wake up in the morning with a smile on my face rather than wanting to just fall back asleep for the rest of my life. I WANT TO BE HAPPY
